Under the Golden Moon

This morning I wake up early, throw on my shoes and jacket, and head out for a walk along the coastline. It’s super dark and will be dark for a few more hours. Why am I up and out so early?! I look up and the sky is filled with stars.  A shooting star!  The large and thin crescent moon is rising and lying down like she’s still asleep too. I walk and walk, do pirouettes on the beach, climb on rocks and find a place to meditate until the sun comes up.

I am feeling so grateful for the ability to be adventurous, connect to the powerful energy here, and connect to myself in a deep and meaningful way. I feel tears in my eyes. This is the Liora who I want to be always. I want to grab and harness this energy!!

A friend recently told me that I’m living under the Golden Moon. I hardly see her in person. But she sees my posts, where I am happy, adventurous, and bright.

I am!

But hearing her say that, I wonder, am I really living under the Golden Moon?

You may or may not know that I regularly experience sadness, stress, and can get in a funk. Sometimes I get caught up in all the things “I have to do” that don’t feel as connected and available to people as I would like.

Even now, as the moon is rising, my tears of joy and gratitude shift into tears of sadness. I am thinking about magical times I spent on the coast with an ex-boyfriend who now hardly speaks to me. I think about how badly I want to love and be loved. I think of my fears and all the things I want to do that I’m stopped from doing.

I can literally experience joy and sadness within the same breath.

Do you experience that too?

Living under the Golden Moon doesn’t mean that I feel happy and free all of the time. But what I do know about myself is that I am committed and devoted to something greater, including trusting my path.

I am committed to a self-awareness and transformation practice where I confront my fears daily (moment by moment, really), forgive myself, and choose how I want to be. Ultimately, I get that nothing is wrong and I welcome all of the emotions and experiences that show up.

This is the deep work that has me connect to the Liora who is joyful and free.

And this is the energy that has me hike every single day, dance all night, go on adventures, go to Burning Man, and bring all of life towards me. This is what has me wake up before sunrise and cry about it all.

All under the Golden Moon.

Photo credit: Terry Richmond

  • Karen Rainsong

    November 6, 2019 at 4:26 pm Reply

    Thanks for this fresh honesty Liora. I honestly know what you are talking about here, I have similar feelings too. This year has meant some deep shift not only inside me but in my living situation, and relationship status. But through it all I still connect to that joyful, free person inside me through art, ritual, wonder, and exploration. Thank goodness for the beauty of nature! Love you.

    • Liora Sponko

      November 6, 2019 at 6:06 pm Reply

      Beautiful Karen. Thanks so much for sharing and I’m do glad to hear that this piece resonates. Yes, so much gratitude for evolution and transformation. May we both continue to feel so deeply and freely. Much love.

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